Vida em música!

É...ontem pude dizer realmente que acabou. Acabou de uma forma que nem passou pela minha cabeça. Fui abandonada. Fiquei no ponto de bus só. E nunca meu bus havia demorado tanto pra chegar. Mais tempo ainda para chegar em casa...2hs de alterações de humor: triste, alegre, quase chorando, raiva, conformada, perdida....

Fui o caminho todo com essa música na cabeça (principalmente as partes em negrito):

Gone -*NSYNC

There's a thousand words that I could say,
To make you come home.
Yeah,
Seems so long ago you walked away,
Left me alone.
And I remember what you said to me,
You were acting so strange. (Hmmm)
And maybe I was too blind to see,
that you needed a change.
Was it something I said,
to make you turn away,
to make you walk out and leave me cold.
If I could just find a way...
to make it so that you were right here,
Right now

Chorus

I've been sitting here,
Can't get you off my mind,
I'm trying my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane,
Wishing I could touch your face,
But the truth remains...
You're, Gone, (gone)
Baby, you're gone,
You're, Gone,
Baby Girl, you're gone,
Gone,
You're...

Now I don't want to make excuses baby,
won't change the fact that you're gone (oh no)
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know,
The time is passing so slowly now,
Guess that's my life without you. (Guess that's my life withoutyou)
And maybe I could change my everyday,
But baby, I don't want to.
So I'll just hang around, and find some things to do,
To take my mind off missing you.
(Take my mind off missing you)
And I know in my heart,
You can't say that you don't love me to,
Please say you do...
(Yeah)

Chorus

I've been sitting here,
Can't get you off my mind,
I'm trying my best a man and be strong
I drove myself insane,
Wishing I could touch your face,
But the truth remains...(truth remains...you're)
You're, Gone, (gone)
You're, Gone.
Gone, Gone
You're, Gone,
Gone,
You're, Gone,
You're Gone...

Bridge

What will i do
if I can't be with you
tell me where will i turn to
baby who will I be?
now that we are apart
am I still in your heart?
baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me..
Ohh-ohhh!

Chorus

I've been sitting here, (sitting here)
Can't get you off my mind, (can't get you off of my mind)
I'm trying my best a man and be strong, (trying my best to be aman)
I've drove myself insane,
Wishing I could touch your face,
But the truth remains...(truth remains)
You're, Gone, (sitting here)
I've drove myself insane,
Wishing I could touch your face,
But the truth remains... (truth remains)
You're, Gone,
You're, Gone.
Baby, you're gone,
But the truth remains...
You're...

Mas eis que vem Alanis Morrissette com Ironic e muda tudo:


"Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everthing blows up
In your face"

Pois chegando em casa encontrei um 'amigo' que não via a tempos pessoalmente, só virtualmente. Ele me recebeu com um abraço caloroso, que não tinha recebido de quem eu queria. Mas mesmo assim foi reconfortante. Conversamos....contamos um pouco de nossas últimas estórias, mas nada sobre relacionamentos....ufa!
Cheguei em casa menos derrotada do que pensei que chegaria.
Para encerrar meu sábado, tomei banho demorado, lavei o cabelo mesmo sendo tarde e lavei junto minha alma também. E por fim, a pizza deliciosa da mamy.